It's Friday. That means it's time for another Five Minute Friday. If you're unfamiliar with FMF, each week a word is given and you spend 5 minutes (no more than that) interpreting the word as it means to you. It's hosted by Kate at the blog Heading Home. Each week, Kate invites other bloggers to reflect and write for five minutes on a word for that week.
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This week's word is Abandon. What a strong word, huh??
I'm starting my timer now, so here we go.
What does Abandon mean to one? Well, it can mean different things to different people. Maybe to one person it means to toss all the cares of the world away and enjoy ones self. Or maybe it means to be left alone?
For me, it means being left alone in a scary world, having your family turning their back on you because to them, you represent betrayal and pain caused my another family member. It means that you weren't the cause of that pain, but only a visual reminder that they didn't want around them anymore. It means tossing an innocent child out on the streets, not caring if they sink or swim, if maybe their name will be in the headlines of the local paper a week from now because they were found dead because that would mean one would never have to deal with that person again.
I was abandoned like this many, MANY years ago. I was fortunate that a family took me in, fed me, kept a shelter over my head when my own family wouldn't. But, nearly 22 years later, I still feel the damage that being abandoned the way I did had on me. I'm insecure, always afraid that my friends will turn on me, that one day I will find myself alone and betrayed by those who I depend on.
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I'm sorry for the abandonment you have experienced and the pain that continues to cause. My own experience of abandonment has not been so severe but has still made trust difficult. Praying for you today for God's ongoing healing and assurance deep in your heart that he loves you and will never abandon you. Visiting from FMF#16
ReplyDeleteBrenda, what a hard thing to face as a child. And I'm sure the memories haunt you sometimes. I pray that God will comfort and bring complete healing. What a blessing to be taken in by a loving family! God works in different ways, and though people may abandon us, He never will. I'm your neighbor at Five Minute Friday. Blessings to you! You have a beautiful family. :)
ReplyDeleteBrenda it is crushing to read about the hurt that those who should love you most have caused to your sweet heart. I went through some rough patches and found myself dropped, betrayed and abandoned to the point that I chose to not let anyone else in. But God fortunately kept giving me lots of love and grace. I pray that you will find comfort in the grace and peace of the Lord. I am glad that the Lord brought good people to love you when you needed protecting.
ReplyDeleteVisiting from FMF #70. God bless you!
My heart ached as I read this because my father was abandoned as a young child as well by a selfish mother and an abusive step-father. There is a part of his heart that aches 50+ years later so I completely understand that those old wounds don't heal easily. God bless you, sister. May you experience His presence in your life in a real and powerful way. I will be praying for you. Glad I found you on FMF this week.
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